Going In

Meet "Honey" my lucky mascot that Becky bought for me at the breast unit Today. She is a breast cancer awareness bear and so cute.

It has certainly been a day.  My consultant, the wonderful Mr. Caspar Tsokadayi, meet me almost as soon as I got there and asked me how I was , between seeing other patients.  He promised he would not keep me waiting long and he was as good as his word.

The cancer has been confirmed by the core biopsy and I am going in for surgery..................................tomorrow, yes tomorrow Friday 16th March!   What he had not told me last week was that was because of my agoraphobia and general anxiety he had no intention of keeping me waiting and he had, in fact, pencilled me in for surgery when I saw him last week.  He did say it was up to me and that I could wait for another week.  However, I do not want this cancer inside me, I want rid of it so I found myself, although terrified, saying yes, tomorrow then.

After that I had all the pre-admission checks.  Firstly loads of blood taken which they took in a separate little sitting room while they gave us cups of tea.  Then it was on to have my bp checked, my diabetes checked, my urine checked, have my height and weight taken, an ECG then to see another doctor who listened to my chest, back, stomach etc. and gave me a thorough medical.  All this should have been done in the main hospital but because of my fear of hospitals and general anxiety, my consultant arranged everything to be done right there at the breast clinic.  We hear a lot of bad things about the health service but they could not have made it easier for me and the staff so far have been absolutely wonderful.

You can imagine how scared I am of tomorrow, the fear of the anasthetic, of being unable to control what happens to me but at least it will be over and done with quickly.

When the lump is removed it then goes to the laboratory for various tests and it will not be for two weeks until I get the full results.  That will decide what treatment follows on from there, radiotherapy and anti-cancer drugs or one or the other, even chemo.  I will deal with that when the time comes.  As for now, I have to find the courage and strength to face tomorrow.

I ask you all to pray for me.  I am first on the list and will be going for surgery at 9.30 a.m.  My consultant is arranging for Mike to stay with me almost until then.

I do not know when I will be able to type or even feel like typing and, of course, Becky and Mike are going to have their hands full for the next couple of days.  They will be spring-cleaning the bedroom from top to toe to prevent the risk of any infection.  However, Becky has promised that she will post on here as soon as she can to let you know how things went and how I am doing.

So, my friends, that is all I can tell you.  My stomach is in knots but I am so glad that this is being dealt with quickly.  Although this is only the beginning of treatment and there is a long road to travel, I am going to travel it with the best of my ability and keep as positive as I can.  I am in God's hands and He has never failed me so far.

I shall leave you now with some pictures of the Primroses we planted the other day.

Sorry I will not be able to deal with any alerts today, I have to get everything I need to take in with me ready and then spend time with my family.

God bless you all and thank you once again for the marvellous support you have given me and I know you will continue to give me.  J-Land people are the best there are.

 

 

And a picture of our lovely Jack guarding the rabbits, Cassandra and Mrs. Miniver.

Until we meet again, take care of yourselves and be good to each other.