I just wanted to say a very quick thank you for all the comments I have received under my previous posting. To be honest I have not read them all properly yet, I still keep bursting into tears and my eyes are so sore.
I obviously cannot continue my journal at this time. I do not even know right at this moment whether I am going to be able to keep my first appointment for radiotherapy on Wednesday. I shall just have to see how I am on that morning and let them know then.
I have decided to leave this journal as it is and not delete it. If I do decide to return (which will be after my radiotherapy is finished - whenever it starts), I shall make this journal private. I do not see why I should start another journal and throw away all the work of years. However, there are people who will no longer be allowed to have access. I stress these people are not journallers not commentors. This has come from someone much nearer home, someone that is related to me in a tenuous way. Someone who has been very spiteful and caused not only immense upset and shock to me, but trouble within the family. Well, what goes around comes around. The Lord pays debts without money.
So, once again. Thank you all. For those of you who believe in God, I ask for big prayers to be sent out for me because I never expected to be rocked on my heels like this, I never expected to feel this ill so soon to starting my course. I want to get there if I can for my three treatments this week but it is going to be so much harder now. I hurt all over physically, I keep bursting into tears, I do not want to eat and the thought of even getting into the car and doing the journal is making me feel sick when I had been coping so well.
So, big hugs and thanks to you all. I am glad to know that there is so much support out there for me. Glad to know that I have touched your lives and that you have enjoyed my writings and the photographs.
When I am ready to return and I do not know when that will be (as I said yesterday my heart has been knocked out of doing a journal now) I shall do a short posting asking all those who want to be readers of my private journal to leave their names and their journal links.
Until we meet again, God bless you all and take care.
74 comments:
god bless you too Jeannette. you have been so brave. please keep in touch. love Joanne
Jeannette, if it helps at all, just imagine all your many supporters around you as you get into your car to go for your first treatment, and feel us around you as you proceed through those treatments. We WILL be with you every step of the way.
The very best to you all from all of us - I feel quite safe in speaking for others :-)
Freda
Jeannette you must keep your appointment Wednesday ~ please don't put it off ~ The sooner you start the quicker it will be finished ~ God will give you the strength to go on ~ you know we are all thinking about you ~ Ally
You are in all my thoughts and prayers. Please keep in touch when you can and just let us know how you are doing. Remember...we care.
((hugs))
Jeanne
I dont know how hard this person is trying to get to you. But if they are reading your journal and getting to you via that. I have just found our recently there is a site online that evne if your journal is private even if it is closed down the journal can be seen online!!!!!! AT this site. Im sharing tihs info so that you can be informed becuase I do not know how much or badly you need to keep your info secret. I do pray you make it toyour first appointment. I wil keep you in prayers and pray taht you will come back to us.
Jeannette,
It is probably for the best to take a step back, if only to tackle the therapy head-on. Again, the way you were treated is beyond belief. See you when I do.
All strength,
Guido
Jeannette please don't let this person have any more of your thought time. Think of you and nurture good thoughts and feelings for yourself. I am sure you will be pleasantly surprised at having the radiotherapy treatment on Wednesday. You will just be aware of a redness at first which will go. I found Aloe Vera Barbadensis 99.9% so much better than the Aqueous cream. It is gentler to rub into the skin and cooler too. It is also an antiseptic healing gel. Please don't be afraid its not as bad as you imagine it to be. I know you don't like going out or having to lie under machines like this but I promise you it wont be as bad as you imagine. My good wishes and prayers will go with you from Wednesday onwards. God Bless you! Jeanie
(((((((((Jeannette)))))))))))) you are so loved here in JLand. Your a part of our family here. We love you, we worry about you and we care about you. Please go to your appointment on wednesday. Do not put off what you know really needs to be done. The radiation is a big part of the cure. I am here for you anytime you need me. I will write to you, send you mail via postal service, and look forward to hearing from you. You take care of yourself, and know that I will be sending you good thoughts and prayers through your walk into become cancer free.
Love you girlfriend,
Cindy xoxoxoxoxo
Jeannette, whoever did this, meant to hurt you. You have to see your way past this, and don't let her set you back in your therapy. She's a snall minded and not very nice person, so don't let her win. You need to start your therapy on time, don't let this character set you back. Don't allow her the satifaction of another thought from you. Onward and upward. I'll miss your posts, but understand why you won't be writing. Please don't let this person rule your life!
~~Kath~~
Two days is a long time in God's hands and care! Praying His peace to fill you, His hand to lift you. (((((Jeannette))))) - Barbara
Hi Jeannette....you cannot let some small minded person, who knows your sitation now, do this upsetting of you...keep your appointment....do what you know is right for you and your body....God Bless you abundantly right now!!!! hugs from KY...Ora
(((((((((((((((((((((((((JEANNETTE))))))))))))))))))))We are all here for you and praying for you.We all love you so much and we dont want you to leave J-land.I hpe you will return and I will be praying for you wth your treatments and all.God bless you.
God Bless, prayers going up!
Sug
I hope you are able to make your appt. dear one. The sooner you start and the more you get your appt. behind you the sooner this will all be over. I'm keeping you in my prayers on the smoke. I'll be awaiting you return. (Hugs) Indigo
Jeannette, so sorry someone has been crass enough to upset you when you are at a vulnerable stage. Your entries about your grandsons were delightful, and gave pleasure to so many. Best wishes for your continuing treatment, come back soon to those who wish you well. Bunny xx
You will be in my prayers and thoughts......Love and hugs Jeanxx
I do so hope that you will beable to keep your hospital appointments, I cant say from a personal experience how you must be feeling, I can only imagine, the thought of your treatment must fill you with dread, take your time and concentrate on getting better again, I know that your entries will be missed greatly, not only by me but by most of J~land, you only have to see the amount of comments that you get to understand how popular you and your journal are.
Take great care my dear friend
love Lynne xx
My heart, like yours is breaking over this whole sorry mess ,I am saddened that you have had to be so hurt this way at this time by people who should know better ,,please try and go on Wednesday ,for Mike, for us ,and for your dear Grandsons ,the amount of replies you had to your last two entrys are testiment to how WE CARE.... Love Ya ..Jan xx
So many times I've had to pick my self up and dust my self off and start all over again. With the good Lord's help, we just keep on trying to make the most of each day. Take comfort in your wonderful pets, your loving husband and most of all in a loving God that is always there for all of us. I wish you success in those treatments and all the strength necessary to get through it. Prayers always, 'On Ya' - ma
Well Jeannette what can be said about people who are so nasty and spitefull and want to spoil other peoples lives but raise above them go for your treatement you owe it yourself and Mike and your 2 beautiful boys if prayers will get you through you should fly through because so many prayers are being said for you so wipe those tears away and don't let them spoil your life.
I haven't got a journal and I don't always comment but I love reading them you tell some wonderful tales I don't know what i'll do without you
Maureen
((((((((((Jeanette)))))))))) I am praying for you as well as for the unkind person who should know better. She needs a new heart and only the Lord can give her that. Please do not let spitefulness win. You did nothing wrong. Please allow the Lord to give you peace, strength and comfort. That is what He wants for you and He has the power to do it.
loving you
karyl
{{{{{Jeannette}}}}}}}} you must keep your appointment to start your treatment...The sooner done the sooner over and recovery can start...It's hard for you and the small minded selfishness of some uncaring person you need to try and ignore...Again hard but your treatment is important and you have to try and set them to the side and concentrate on getting YOU better Caff xxxxx
I hope you can find the strength you need to get through the next few weeks, and I will be looking forward to your entries when you are able to continue them. I was just getting to know you, and I will miss you! Take care!
Lori
Hello jeanette i just wanted to say that whatever you do or don't do this week, please, please, try to find strength to keep your appointments this week. i've only just started to read your journal and i'm going to miss it very much. i hope when you return i'll be allowed to catch up with you. my prayers will be with you this coming week. see you soon and god bless you.
Dear Jeannette, please think about your health first. Your treatment is your priority now. You've been fighting bravely up to now and it is not the time to give up. Do you really want to let those nasty people win? Show them you are better, that you are superior to their petty minds! Lots of love
Ciao
Antonella
hi, i`m not a regular commenter on any journals, but yours i love to read,
as others have said, please if you can keep your appointments, you need to think of you, not any nasty people that get their `jollies` from other peoples problems / opinions, you are a far better person than to let them get you down,
and yes i will be praying for you,
take care lovely lady, (((((((((())))))))))
Dear Jeanette, I am so sorry at your news although I fully understand why you are not continuing with your Journal. I shall miss it dreadfully especially the "doings" of your grandsons. On the other hand I think you are being very wise in thinking of getting yourself on the road to recovery. The very best of luck my dear nad you will be in my thoughts and prayers until we hear from you again. Love Pam.
And God bless you dear lady and friend.
love ya,
carlene
Dear Jaeannette,I am so sorry to read you are still so upset.I have had a depressive illness for many years and agraphobia on top of this.I carn't say how you must be feeling but I do have an idea.My illness stared through some nasty people so I do undertsand that part.Please Please go for your appointments.If you miss them the next time they can get you an appointment might be a long long wait.Who knows with todays NHS service.You can do it I am sure of this.I had knowone to take me to mine and I found the will and stregnth to go on the local service bus.With God by our side we can do anything.Please go Jeannette and whilst you are there just keep thinking. By this time next week I have won one weeks battle, I am now ready for the next.I could kick the person whoever it is who has upset you like this.I hope little Leo is doing fine and Mike too and family.I will be one who wants to follow you when you return.Please try and sleep and rest a little, get some small amount eaten at least and build up a little strength.Strength goes in at the mouth.Take Care Prayers being said along with all the rest of J/Land.My heart goes out to you at this time.God Bless Kath
Astoriasand http://journals.aol.co.uk/astoriasand/MYSIMPLERHYMES
(((((Jeanette))))))
I really hope you get a chance to read this entry. If not, I will just send you a letter: even better in my book....LOL
I know how hard it must have been for you to decide to close your journal for awhile, but even harder is dealing with the treatment of cancer. I am behind you and in spirit and friendship.
Take good care and if you ever need to SHOUT, I'm right here for you.....always!
Love you, God Bless You and a speedy recovery for you I pray!
I will email you my address and things too ok? :)
Biggest and Warmest Huggers to you my friend,
Gayla
Please try hard to keep your appointments, take each minute as it comes, and believe in yourself and your family. Whatever it takes to get you through, go for it. Karma is a wonderful thing.
Take great care Vanessa xxx
((((((((((Jeannette))))))))))
You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Sunny
Please try hard to keep your appointments, take each minute as it comes, and believe in yourself and your family. Whatever it takes to get you through, go for it. Karma is a wonderful thing.
Take great care Vanessa xxx
jeannette take care of yourself
sending hugs and prayers
emily
please stay strong.you"ve done so well up to now.you are a inspiration to me and others.god bless you and your family love jo x
Hello! Jeannette....Yours was the 1st Journal I read, and inspired me to write my own, if only for a short time.Not been around much lately, due to my own ill health over the last twelve months. Do hope you continue with the treatment....and your problems are soon resolved.
Take care
Aileen....X
GOD BLESS YOU..
hang in there, I hope you get to feeling better.
Keep in touch.
Love, Cassie
Jeannette, please please keep that appointment on Wednesday!! I know it is very scary but your health is so very important not only to you but your own very lovely & special family. Please don't let that person get to you, it was cruel and insensitive....I honestly hope that Karma does reap its revenge.......you truly are a lovely person and J-land would be a very sad place without you my friend........besides I am soon coming up for my 2nd anniversary and I need the lady who inspired me to be there to read my entry on that day!!! Love to you and Mike, xxxxxJoan
You will be missed!!
Missie
good luck I will miss you, its a shame we won't see Leo as he grows xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Please try and go on Wednesday do not the Horrid person win
how anyone can be so nasty over a picture of a pair of hands
is beyond me. I hope that you will let me be a reader when you start again. Best Wishes to you both
You are going to be missed by me. I hope you find the strength to go to the appointments and get your health in order. That's most important.
I wish you the best and hope to see you return soon.
Pam
Goodnight God Bless. You will always be in my prayers....YOU WILL GET THROUGH ....Love Sybil.xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
I'm going to miss you so very much Jeannette! I understand your reasons. My prayers are wtith you.
xxxxx
Lisa
Sorry to hear that you will have to go private because of someone else, I know how that feels as it happened to me. Don`t let them win Jeanette, keep your appointment at the hospital we are all willing you to do that. These people are not worth the worry and like you said their`s "Karma" what goes around usually ends right back at their own door!!!
Take care and good luck with everything
luv bella xx
You must go on Wednesday Jeanette. Try now and just start thinking of yourself for a change. You have a wonderful husband and a wonderful daughter in Becky. You must battle on for these people who loves you so much. Do it mostly for yourself. You have been an insparation to me making me start this journal,and I have found so many new freinds because of you. I cannot thank you enough. I do hope that in time you will have the strength and the courage to write to us all again. I miss you already. Kathie.
Well, if you go private... I hope to be included. Know that you will remain in my thoughts and prayers... I am so sorry that a bad apple is giving you grief!
be well,
Dawn
Dear Jeanette, you know we are all here for you. We will be waiting and hoping that you will be ok. Please go on Wednesday, take some deep breaths and know we are all holding your hand and thinking of you. Hugs, Terry x
I am sending up prayers for you Jeannette. I am so sorry for the upset you are taking. Praying that you will be able to go get your treatments and that you soon get settled down.
Hugs, Helen
I will miss you very much. I pray for your speedy recovery. Take care of yourself,as best as you can. My father has an expression...self preservation the first law of nature. Do what you need to do to take care of yourself.
Jeannette. . you reap what you sow. . so whoever has hurt you should really think how their behaviour has upset you. . the last thing you need before starting radiotherapy treatment.You MUST go on Wednesday.Its vital to your health that you attend. .so no putting anything off.A piece of advice Jeannette. . .anyone can hurt our feelings and upset us ONLY IF WE LET THEM.
My dear Jeannette,
I`m really sorry to hear that your arm has been forced where your journal is concerned. How dare someone, whoever they may be cause you so much pain at such a time in your life. I do know that all your strength has to go into your treatment and I`m furious that someone is causing you so much hurt. I`m praying for you as always but especially for you to be able to attend your first treatment on Wednesday. Take care my dear friend.
Much Love
Sandra xxxxx
((((Jeannette))))) Many hugs to you!! My thoughts and prayers go out to you!! Take care, and be strong..God is with you-let HIM be your strength! Love, Julie P.S. I will miss reading your journal--get well and come back to us soon!!
Jeannette I am so sorry this is all happening to you, you don't deserve it. Please keep your appointment on Wednesday, your health is so important. I enjoy reading your journal yours was the first one I read and I always think of you as special as are your lovely grandchildren. Please let us know how you are getting on when you have finished your treatment. Mags x
God bless you Jeannette and I hope everything goes well for your radiotherapy. I'm sure we'll all be thinking about you xx I cannot believe the gall of that person to post that comment.........at least you will not be deleting your journal. Don't give in xx
Jenny
Jeanette. may the Lord give you strength through your journey to recovery. Try not to close the journal, you may help others in the same situation. Remember to make a sword strong and beautiful it has to go through fire. Some days will be diamond, and some days will be coal, your faith will carry you through. Just let go and let GOD. He will also deal with others that may not be in your league, so Bless them and leave them to the Lord. With love and blessings, and understanding.
Jeannette, I'm so sorry you are having to go through all this and I'm sure you could do without what ever problems this person has caused you-I hope it is resolved soon.
Best wishes and hugs for you and your family...I hope you make a speedy recovery.
Lots of Love, Amy ~X~
I am so sorry about all this.... and I am sending prayers and strength. You know I want to be added my friend.
hugs
d
Stay strong, Jeannette. Don't let anyone get you down. You can get through this and come out the shining star that you are.
Im glad you've decided to stay even tho only after your treatments please go on wednesday your health is the most important thing ill be thinking about you and checking back regularly i dont have a journal but would be honoured to be allowed to read yours when you return
stay strong specail lady
sharon
Bless you, Jeannette...I hope and pray that you are able to continue with your treatment this week. Don't let this evil entity stop your battle against the cancer. Don't let them try to win yet another battle. You are right. This person(s) will lose the war. God doesn't like ugly or evil. What goes around; comes around. Now, gather your strength, as we are all praying you will, and get yourself taken care of so that we can all meet again when you are private. I'm so glad you didn't delete all your priceless entries. Much love to you, my friend...Chris
I don't have a Journal and I don't comment but I love reading your journal. Could you consider me when you go private. Praying for you. Ginger
bless you Jeanette, keep your chin up, stay strong. maggie Norwich
you stay strong ok! i will keep you in prayer and remember you are in Gods hands and he will watch over you:) let me know if i can do anything ok?
Deb
Hi Jeannette - I`m sorry to hear that you`re going through so much right now. I would like to be added to your private journal once you get back on your feet.
I felt the same way when I was going through my extensive chemo..... Some days I wondered how in the world I was going to get through it. But I did and you will, too.
Hugs and God bless you -
Penny
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http://www.myspace.com/pennysplace2gogh
hi jeannette..... i am sorry to hear about how sad you are at the moment the person who done this to you and your family is wicked. my prayers are with you i hope you find strength within yourself to go on wednesday no stepping back you, must go foward dont let anyone get you down like this ....Think is this person more important than my husband children and granchildren .............NO i didnt think so please be strong for yourself and them. Jeannette you are a wonderfull lady with a beutifull family dont give up now we are all counting on you god bless hugs and kisses ps your little kitten is sooooooooo sweet hope to see you back soon xxx
Just want you to know you will be missed. My prayers are with you, and hoping you receive super strength to be able to get the treatments that you need--and complete recovery will be very quick! God love you and keep you in His embrace. ((((hugs)))) LaVern
Oh Jeanette, I've no idea what's gone on but I really hope you make your appointment on Wednesday, I would hope you will send me a link to your private journal too when you start it. There are so many people here supporting you, as you have been so supportive to so many others. My prayers are with you xxxx
I dont know what happened either, i will miss you loads, and i really hope everything goes well for you, you have been a great inspiration to my journal, when i felt like giving up id read your journal and it made me feel all sunny inside, and gave me inspiration to carry on, so take care and maybe one day you will find the strenght to come back.Bye, thanks for sharing your wonderful life with us, and I hope your new little kitten is well too Beckie.xxxxx
Dear Jen, I am so sorry that it,s taken me so long to do a comment on here, but we have had a few problems, will write more on ava if you get a chance to read it honey. I don,t know what has gone on or been said to hurt you, but I wish you all the luck in the world during your treatments. My love and prayers are with you daily and constantly, if you do start another journal or continue this one I shall read it and write a comment whenever I can. Goodbye my dear friend for the time being, hoping that you come through this ok. Love and hugs Jen x x x x x x
dear jeannette,i so hope you have been able to start your treatment today and i cannot believe that someone could wish you such misery im thinking of you,be strong -keep climbing that mountain,love and hugs Dee,i dont have a journal but i read yours and i will miss it xxxxxxxx
we love you so much Jeanette
love,natalie
Dear Jeannette as you know I was on on holiday when all this happened but I was with you in mind and spirit and was wishing you well from afar ,dear friend .....Love Jeanxx
Hi Jeanette, thinking of you, I expect you are feeling pretty rough at this time, but take it easy and remember that there are a lot of people out there who are rooting for you. Take things one day at a time and keep the faith. Remember each day the old saying "And this too shall pass". No one except you know what you are going through, every one experiences an illness in their own way. Rest, rest and more rest, eat as heathly as you can. I went to New Zealand to spend time looking after a friend, and the one thing she could keep down was my poached eggs, how she looked forward to those, and a couple of thin slices of fruit, and a spoonful or two of a smoothie. Although she could barely raise a smile, we made sure that each day we had a laugh, however rediculous the situation may have seemed. I even made the family and visitors one night pull a stocking over their heads to see who could look the ugliest and the funniest. Jeanette we rocked the roof off, friend included. So Jeanette l look forward to you rocking the roof off and your return to your journal. Bless you and your journal and all those who sail in her.
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